Life is busy.
There is nothing new about that.
There are 24 hours a day.
There is nothing new about that.
I have forgotton to nurture myself.
Sadly, there is nothing new about that.
I've been away from blog.
Rarely reading, never writing, always guilt ridden.
Feeling guilty that I haven't taken the time.
The time to log on, let my fingers dance on the keys...
my thoughts and dreams recorded here for all time.
I don't have delusions of grandeur.
I know that my blog is mainly for me...
and a few loyal friends who faithfully comment. (Thank you!)
Yet, grand or not this blog is a part of me.
A part that is important yet so easy for me to ignore.
Once I've not written for a while I start to avoid.
Then more time goes by and I still don't write.
The negative self talk begins and so it goes....
Round...and round...and round.
It makes me think of the all the other areas of my life.
The physical, spiritual, and emotional pieces.
I think about how my procrastination has been a theif.
It has stolen time from me by layering on self doubt....guilt.
And the worst part is that I have allowed it.
My life is unfolding and I'm not taking the time to record it.
My life is unfolding and I'm not being in the moment to live it.
I think it's time for that to change.
(Note: Something is wrong with my computer and/or blog. I can't go back to read what I wrote...Only some of my posting options are appearing...and worst of all I can't move the cursor back to edit. Hmmmm....need to figure this out or my posts are going to be all crazy like! I will try not to let it discourage me from posting...but it's strange!)
So nice to hear your voice! I think of you often and pray prayers of well wishes! Just last week, as I was crying through an episode of Parenthood, I wondered if you were watching too! Hope you get the technical issues sorted through! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI was watching Parenthood...and crying!! :) I hope I get the problem cleared up too. It's only happening when I want to write a new post so it must be something with Blogger. :( Thanks for stopping by!
DeleteLove your writing, Kristi! It doesn't matter how long it takes you to post, again. You're just going through something called, "Life." When the Lord pushes your heart and soul to write, you write. Silence is good--real good. On another note: I have joined an exercise boot camp and it is torturous, to say the least. I'm not even the oldest person there and I'm kissing half a century, in a month or so. But those folks are like exercising machines and they look great. One guy is 60 and runs circles around me, literally. He is funny and inspirational! Okay, enough about my life. I just miss talking to you:)
ReplyDeleteHa ha I love hearing about your life!! Ironically, my quick post today is about my first half marathon that is coming up..and my terror! Boot camp sounds terrifying also. I guess we're both hearing God whisper to us that we need to get our booties in motion. Love your reminder that silence is real good. I need to repeat that when I feel guilty. I've missed talking to you also~ xo
DeleteHi Kristi,
ReplyDeleteNice to see you again. Take it one day at a time and don't let guilt take over. You have been in my thoughts. xo
Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts ayala! Even when I'm not around I think about you and your beautiful poetry!
DeleteBlessings~
i go through phases too and feel like the longer i haven't written the easier it is to procrastinate even more - but once i get to sit down and start typing again i'd realize what i've missed - writing from fleeting memories is no where near as fun as writing from thoughts that are still fresh!
ReplyDeleteIt's been a while and so glad to hear from you again. Every now and then I drop by to see how you're doing and believe me, you're not the only one that seems to be going around in circle. Sounds like my life story, just going around in circles as if I'm chasing my own tail. Good to hear from you again dear friend. Thank you for always being so inspiring with your posts.
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