Sunday, February 5, 2012

I Blinked

I blinked.
I blinked and January was over.
In the aftermath of surgeries, holidays, and trips...
of strokes, working, and laundry...
of proms, dinners, and tears...
I woke up and realized that a whole precious month was gone.
And I hadn't taken the time to savor it.

My word for 2011 was create.
Not only did I give birth to this blog
but so many of my everyday moments were focused around that word.
Whether it was a dinner cooked,
a post written,
or
a lesson taught,
I tried to tap into that part of me that longed to create.
My year was made better because of my word.

2012 is a new year...a new word.
The word that seemed to choose me is shine.
Now that may seem an obvious choice since the word is right
in the name of this blog.
Looking back over previous posts I realized how often I wrote of it.
But for me it was a realization.

Shine.
I want to shine.
For God. For my family. For myself.
I need to shine.
For when I shine the world seems a bit warmer...a bit brighter.
Yet, please don't think shine equals perfection.
And please don't think shine translates into performance.

To me shine is being able to lose the dullness that sometimes overtakes me.
To me shine is a reminder to embrace this gift of life
and reflect it's beauty back.
To me shine requires me to be present.
To be in each of the moments of my life.
The heart-stopping joy and
the heart-pinching pain.

So I blinked...
hence, the month of January does not have many moments in which
I shone.
Instead I hid, I wallowed, I disappeared.
Yet,
this "blink and missed it" month does not need to stop me.

 There are still eleven more glorious months
 in which I can center around my word.

Shine.
I think I'm going to like this.














4 comments:

  1. Kristi, sometimes it's easier said than done... I know.. Because sometimes sadness and depression are with us and we try to shake it off or we allow it to walk with us. I hope you shine, and I hope you find happiness in the little things. I hope all of you stay healthy and even when the curveballs appear you can avoid them or face them. I have missed you here, keep writing it will help you shine :)

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  2. Hello February! And I'm happy to have your words to read today! There are times when pulling back a bit helps me to find the breath to begin expressing myself again...I think it all works together to help us shine. Sorry you've been through so much...the quote I put up today got me thinking about your word! hugs!

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  3. You should be a great Poet Kristi. Your words flow with a peaceful melodic rhythm. Touching the heart and the soul. I can see your January was as eventful as mine. Yet nothing stops you from radiating and sharing your warmth and your light with others. You are a ray of sunshine. Your choice of "word" for this year illuminates only goodness and hope. Thank you for always dropping by my blog. Your words are always so encouraging and sweet.

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